I’m actually doing ok. Sure, I still wonder if I can do this, whether I have the strength to manage my ED, but mood wise I’m ok and that is something in itself. I feel like I’m progressing much better than in my last admission. It took a year just to stabilise my physical health and mentally I never really got there.
This time is different, it has to be.
Today I found out I’m allowed to pick my car up, I’m starting to increase my time spent out the house and I also have the job interview on Friday. I’m not expecting that I will get it, but regardless it will be great practice.
I’m desperately trying to create a “normal” life in a hope that it will be enough to quieten the ED thoughts, provide me with a new, better identity part and for me to feel enough in general.